05/07/2011

Straightening my collar....

I've been the subject of my own photographic journey ever since I've own a camera. I wouldn't say I was egotistical or a vain dandy, in fact, I would consider myself quite self conscious and am often social inept. I would much rather be a part of the conversation than the topic, and I  have always found it hard to strike up chit chat, even with those I have known for years. I really have to try hard at it (and it often sounds awkward in my head)
Why do I photograph myself so often? Well that's easy, it's comfortable.
I can play with lighting at my leisure, there's no one to direct and I can muddle and faff* as much as I like without due care to other people. I obviously care about the results, the end image is important to me, but I rarely start out with a goal in mind, I just know when I'm done.
Is there a story/meaning behind an image that was created with intent? Quite often, yes.
I only ever take pictures when the 'mood' strikes me. Sometimes they capture my playful side. Sometimes it's clear that I am sad, frustrated or angry - although I tend not to share too many of those images.
Today I felt the 'mood' and these are the results, I only took 8 pictures, that felt like enough. The setup built itself, and I think it captures how I feel perfectly. People are very good at disguising how they feel on a daily basis, we are all performers.
So why do I photograph myself? Sometimes it's just to see how well the mask is holding up.

Thanks for stopping by :{,


* Faff 
Verb
1. to waste time doing nothing. 2. to waste time doing stupid things 3. to delay, dilly-dally, especially before leaving the house to be on time somewhere

5 comments:

TypiCallyZeke said...

loving the footnote about faff..

Eolist Petite said...

interesting self observation - i'd never thought about photos of myself - or others - that way.

Indigo Roth said...

Significant stuff, matey.

And a nice waistcoat.

Anonymous said...

That lighting looks very bright to me. Are you sure it isn't dangerous?

Anonymous said...

From one faffer to another - love the pics x